Not-duality

What I am
Is not present, but absent
For whenever I look for this I, I find
No one
Present

My apparent presence, then, is absence —
And this absence must be both
My apparent presence
And the absence of that apparent presence

Yet this absence is not absent
In the way my apparent presence is absent
Nor is my absence present
In the way my apparent presence
Seems present but is found absent

This absence — neither present nor absent —
Is both my apparent presence
And my apparent absence

So what I am
Is neither present nor absent, in actuality
And both present and absent
Apparently

In other words:
Whatever I say about what I am
Would be false

Still —
In other words:

There are no teachings, no words
No expressions of
Non-duality —
Which is this absence, neither present nor absent

All so-called teachings of non-duality, then
Are at best expressions of
Not-duality —
The negation of both counterparts of any duality

What remains
Cannot be expressed or stated
By any word, noun, or adjective —

However refined:
Presence. Awareness. Consciousness
Emptiness. Void. Self
Brahman. God

For doing so would at once
Draw what remains
Into the realm of duality